Friday, May 14, 2010
Really. Is this what Black America is coming to?
The video above is a clip of an unfair girl fight. Some of you probably are wondering why I'm posting this. I'm posting it because I actually know one of these girls [the one in the black.] I think it's unfair that she got jumped even though she brought it on herself by driving to the other girl's neighborhood, trying to fight her & start drama. Even if they did get into a fight, I think it should have been one on one. Instead the other girl's aunt & other people jumped in and jumped her. I don't understand. I'm glad they decided to fight instead of bring guns or other weapons. It would have been a much worse situation if they did that.
This is why men mistreat us young women by calling us out of our names. This is why people stereotype black women and instead of trying to stop it, they record it. It makes no sense to me at all. One girl tried to break it up but more people wanted to see it. Smh. This is why other races look down on us. They always see videos of us fighting or degrading ourselves & we wonder why they discriminate us. We really have to get it together.
- Signing off,
Rene
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Interracial Dating and My Take On It.
Hey guys. I wanted to write a blog about interracial dating. Everyone is 'swirlin it' up now-a-days. I have no problem with it all. I think it's a beautiful thing that all ethnic backgrounds are coming together like the way the world is supposed to be. I actually like all races of men. I would date any man if I felt like he was the one for me. Just as long as he was BORN a man. If he loved me for who I was, wanted to get to know everything about me and decided he was serious, shoot, that's all I really need.
I don't want to call out anyone but I see 'brothas' or 'black dudes' dating women white which is perfectly fine. The only problem is that some of the black men dating white women don't want us black women to date a white man. If you're going to date outside your race then why can't I? I've seen it plenty times before. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE some black men but yall do this sometimes. It's like yall want to have every race of women but yall only want us to have a black man. It's 2010 though so if I want the catch jungle fever then I will take a trip to the the other side.
In my opinion, there's only one type of black man I don't like. The type who will only date outside their race because they think all black women are 'ghetto' or they are all 'hoes' who are on welfare & things like that which is totally not the case. Take the picture below as an example :
Now, was it really necessary to say all of that? No, it wasn't. He acts as if races of women are put on pedestals putting black women at the bottom on the pit. There are many successful black women who have successful black men standing by their side. Instead of seeing that, he uses the typical black female stereotype used in film, television & music videos.
Now ladies, raise your hand if you are upset that this brotha is not attracted to black women. *Crickets* [Looks to the left and sees no hands are raised. Switches her view to the right and sees no hands raised] Nobody? That's what I thought. He acts like he's is a big loss the black women of America when in all actuality no one is checking for him at the end of the day. There are plenty of black men who like black women who are successful, who are better looking, & who are less cocky & more humble than this guy thinks he is.
Men like him are AFRAID of black women. They feel like black women are too strong and powerful for them. He feels like he would be bossed around. He would rather have a submissive partner [I'm not saying all women in other races are like this.], a partner that would do anything HE wants which is kinda selfish if you ask me because a relationship is between two people. You can't be in a relationship with yourself. He wants to feel like he wears the pants in the relationship but he feels intimidated by a black woman because she is powerful & fearless. If the right man comes along for that black woman, he can tame her down a bit though. He doesn't want to do all the dirty work of trying to tame a dominant black woman, he just wants a pre-submissive woman. You get what I'm trying to say?
As black women, we are strong, beautiful, & powerful. We have to show the world that there's more to black women than 'video vixens', 'prostitutes', 'drug addicts and dealers', and 'baby mamas' because that's all they portray us as on television. We have to show them that we are lawyers, doctors, professors, philanthropists, authors, writers, entrepreneurs etc. Same thing with black men.
Just read what I'm writing & take it all in. Think about it.
Powerful Couples
Of course Obama & Michelle Were at the top of the list. They are both strong individuals. Obama is the 44th president of the U.S. Michelle is his wife but she can take many more titles than that. She is a mother but she is also very active in the community, involved in many charities and she also went to law school prior to marrying Barack. They have 2 daughters.
Seal and Heidi Klum are a beautiful couple. Seal is a songwriter who has various singles including 'Kiss From a Rose' which won 2 grammys. Heidi is known world wide as a model but she is also a televison host & producer, fashion designer, artist, business woman and singer. They have 2 sons & a daughter.
Jada and Will are a powerful couple. They each have multiple jobs they can do. Jada is an actress, author, business woman, director & singer-songwriter. Will is an actor, film producer & rapper. They know how to make money & invest it in the important places in life. They have 2 sons & a daughter.
Robin Thicke and Paula Patton make a great couple. Robin is a singer-songwriter, musician, composer, and he acts part-time. Paula Patton is an actress who has been in films such as Idlewild Blues & Precious. They had a son named Julian Fuego last month.
David Bowie and Iman are probably the oldest couple on my list but that hasn't stopped them a bit. Iman is an model, actress and entrepreneur. David Bowie is an actor, musician, record producer and arranger. He has had numerous singles on the UK charts. They have a daughter together.
I don't want to call out anyone but I see 'brothas' or 'black dudes' dating women white which is perfectly fine. The only problem is that some of the black men dating white women don't want us black women to date a white man. If you're going to date outside your race then why can't I? I've seen it plenty times before. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE some black men but yall do this sometimes. It's like yall want to have every race of women but yall only want us to have a black man. It's 2010 though so if I want the catch jungle fever then I will take a trip to the the other side.
In my opinion, there's only one type of black man I don't like. The type who will only date outside their race because they think all black women are 'ghetto' or they are all 'hoes' who are on welfare & things like that which is totally not the case. Take the picture below as an example :
Now, was it really necessary to say all of that? No, it wasn't. He acts as if races of women are put on pedestals putting black women at the bottom on the pit. There are many successful black women who have successful black men standing by their side. Instead of seeing that, he uses the typical black female stereotype used in film, television & music videos.
Now ladies, raise your hand if you are upset that this brotha is not attracted to black women. *Crickets* [Looks to the left and sees no hands are raised. Switches her view to the right and sees no hands raised] Nobody? That's what I thought. He acts like he's is a big loss the black women of America when in all actuality no one is checking for him at the end of the day. There are plenty of black men who like black women who are successful, who are better looking, & who are less cocky & more humble than this guy thinks he is.
Men like him are AFRAID of black women. They feel like black women are too strong and powerful for them. He feels like he would be bossed around. He would rather have a submissive partner [I'm not saying all women in other races are like this.], a partner that would do anything HE wants which is kinda selfish if you ask me because a relationship is between two people. You can't be in a relationship with yourself. He wants to feel like he wears the pants in the relationship but he feels intimidated by a black woman because she is powerful & fearless. If the right man comes along for that black woman, he can tame her down a bit though. He doesn't want to do all the dirty work of trying to tame a dominant black woman, he just wants a pre-submissive woman. You get what I'm trying to say?
As black women, we are strong, beautiful, & powerful. We have to show the world that there's more to black women than 'video vixens', 'prostitutes', 'drug addicts and dealers', and 'baby mamas' because that's all they portray us as on television. We have to show them that we are lawyers, doctors, professors, philanthropists, authors, writers, entrepreneurs etc. Same thing with black men.
Just read what I'm writing & take it all in. Think about it.
Powerful Couples
Of course Obama & Michelle Were at the top of the list. They are both strong individuals. Obama is the 44th president of the U.S. Michelle is his wife but she can take many more titles than that. She is a mother but she is also very active in the community, involved in many charities and she also went to law school prior to marrying Barack. They have 2 daughters.
Seal and Heidi Klum are a beautiful couple. Seal is a songwriter who has various singles including 'Kiss From a Rose' which won 2 grammys. Heidi is known world wide as a model but she is also a televison host & producer, fashion designer, artist, business woman and singer. They have 2 sons & a daughter.
Jada and Will are a powerful couple. They each have multiple jobs they can do. Jada is an actress, author, business woman, director & singer-songwriter. Will is an actor, film producer & rapper. They know how to make money & invest it in the important places in life. They have 2 sons & a daughter.
Robin Thicke and Paula Patton make a great couple. Robin is a singer-songwriter, musician, composer, and he acts part-time. Paula Patton is an actress who has been in films such as Idlewild Blues & Precious. They had a son named Julian Fuego last month.
David Bowie and Iman are probably the oldest couple on my list but that hasn't stopped them a bit. Iman is an model, actress and entrepreneur. David Bowie is an actor, musician, record producer and arranger. He has had numerous singles on the UK charts. They have a daughter together.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
He's Perfect :)
I want to hold hands & watch the sunset with him.
I want to walk on the beach with him.
When I hear his voice, I want to feel butterflies.
And if I hit him, I would want for him to restrain & hold me in his arms tightly, instead of fighting back.
When he kisses me, I'd wanna feel like I have to catch my breath.
When I see him, I wanna be nervous but excited.
If we got into an argument, I'd want him to stay & try to talk it out instead of walking away from the situation.
When I'm crying, I'd want his shoulder to lean on.
I'd want my family to like him & for him to like my family & vice versa.
I'd want to be his backbone/support & for him to be mine.
And when it comes to sex, I'd want him to understand my decision to wait, but when it's the right moment & it finally happens, I want it to be special & explosive. I'd want to be something to remember everytime.
My imagination lets me wonder will I ever find a dude like this and I know I will because I deserve it! Someone whose tough on the exterior, but someone who isn't afraid to show how they feel. A real man! I would do the same for him because I'm a real woman & I'm too old to play games. I want a long-lasting relationship. Something I can tell my grandkids about. Something that I will remember forever.
I want to walk on the beach with him.
When I hear his voice, I want to feel butterflies.
And if I hit him, I would want for him to restrain & hold me in his arms tightly, instead of fighting back.
When he kisses me, I'd wanna feel like I have to catch my breath.
When I see him, I wanna be nervous but excited.
If we got into an argument, I'd want him to stay & try to talk it out instead of walking away from the situation.
When I'm crying, I'd want his shoulder to lean on.
I'd want my family to like him & for him to like my family & vice versa.
I'd want to be his backbone/support & for him to be mine.
And when it comes to sex, I'd want him to understand my decision to wait, but when it's the right moment & it finally happens, I want it to be special & explosive. I'd want to be something to remember everytime.
My imagination lets me wonder will I ever find a dude like this and I know I will because I deserve it! Someone whose tough on the exterior, but someone who isn't afraid to show how they feel. A real man! I would do the same for him because I'm a real woman & I'm too old to play games. I want a long-lasting relationship. Something I can tell my grandkids about. Something that I will remember forever.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
" What are some words that describe me? I am ambititous. I am determined. I am persistant. I am not the stereotype. I am unique. I am the conductor of my destiny. Most of all, I am me. An individual."
That was a quote I came up with a little while ago. It represents me perfectly. I don't like to be like anyone else. It is true that I like celebrity's style [ie. Rihanna, Teyana Taylor, Kelis & many others.] but I like to do my own thing. It is also true that I admire many artist's music [Such as Pharrell, Timberland etc.] but I like to make my own music. All I want to be is an individual.
I look at the people out now who like to steal others' identity & I don't think it's cool. It's ok to be unique & do your own thing. A lot of people are trying to emulate Lady Gaga's style [ie. Nicki Minaj & Khia (In her latest video)] when Lady Gaga didn't even make up that style herself. A lot of guys are trying to wear skinny jeans like the New Boyz when The Cool Kids had that style first. [Personally, I like The Cool Kids a heckuva lot better]. I've even seen people try to steal what I do [like wearing things how I wear it.] One of the things about my style is I don't match but I coordinate my colors. People have been trying to copy that for years. Smh. I guess people just like to be imitations. I will tell you one thing though. When it comes to style & music, I WILL be a LEADER, never a FOLLOWER!
That was a quote I came up with a little while ago. It represents me perfectly. I don't like to be like anyone else. It is true that I like celebrity's style [ie. Rihanna, Teyana Taylor, Kelis & many others.] but I like to do my own thing. It is also true that I admire many artist's music [Such as Pharrell, Timberland etc.] but I like to make my own music. All I want to be is an individual.
I look at the people out now who like to steal others' identity & I don't think it's cool. It's ok to be unique & do your own thing. A lot of people are trying to emulate Lady Gaga's style [ie. Nicki Minaj & Khia (In her latest video)] when Lady Gaga didn't even make up that style herself. A lot of guys are trying to wear skinny jeans like the New Boyz when The Cool Kids had that style first. [Personally, I like The Cool Kids a heckuva lot better]. I've even seen people try to steal what I do [like wearing things how I wear it.] One of the things about my style is I don't match but I coordinate my colors. People have been trying to copy that for years. Smh. I guess people just like to be imitations. I will tell you one thing though. When it comes to style & music, I WILL be a LEADER, never a FOLLOWER!
Monday, March 29, 2010
This Is How Every Man Should Be
When you break her heart===[ the pain NEVER really goes away ]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU===[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When she says its over===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]... See More
When she reposts this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]
When she walks away from you mad===[ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth===[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared===[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite hat==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she like's you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold ]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU===[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When she says its over===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]... See More
When she reposts this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]
When she walks away from you mad===[ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth===[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared===[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite hat==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she like's you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold ]
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Pictures, eh?
I was bored so I decided to take some pics. Editing was easy, all I had to do was a little bit of basic touch-ups like fixing the blur, and resizing.
Monday, March 8, 2010
This Makes Me So MAD!
I hate to see people together. I hate to see people say they're in love. I hate that because I want to be like them. I want to have someone say they love me and actually MEAN IT, not to just try & get what they want from me. Thought I had that, got played & didnt get an apology. Its hard to get over but I'm trying my best.
Dudes in my generation are a HUGE disappointment. They pick the girl whose gonna give them the brain over the girl who has the brain & the heart just to get some quick excitement. This is the MAIN reason I'm always left in the cold , alone and brokenhearted. They don't want a girl who has enough self-respect for myself to wait until marriage to have sex instead of giving it away free to everybody. I want to be loved for more than my 'body parts' because I'm more than that but thats all these young dudes see. I don't understand it at all. You should want to take the time to get to know me but instead you go straight to the sexual questions. I give up. I surrender. I'm done when it comes to love because no dude wants to take the time to get to know me for my personality, talents, interests or future plans & goals in life so fck it....im done with this sht...im about to become a heartbreaker....
Dudes in my generation are a HUGE disappointment. They pick the girl whose gonna give them the brain over the girl who has the brain & the heart just to get some quick excitement. This is the MAIN reason I'm always left in the cold , alone and brokenhearted. They don't want a girl who has enough self-respect for myself to wait until marriage to have sex instead of giving it away free to everybody. I want to be loved for more than my 'body parts' because I'm more than that but thats all these young dudes see. I don't understand it at all. You should want to take the time to get to know me but instead you go straight to the sexual questions. I give up. I surrender. I'm done when it comes to love because no dude wants to take the time to get to know me for my personality, talents, interests or future plans & goals in life so fck it....im done with this sht...im about to become a heartbreaker....
Friday, March 5, 2010
Alone
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of going down this road alone.
In the past, other guys have done me wrong.
I hope that you could be the one,
to change my outlook on men,
and not leave me bruised & hurt again,
and have my back through thick & thin,
but all I really want to do is get revenge.
Please be the one to turn it all around,
seeing that my hopes of finding true love are down,
lower than a casket in the ground,
my heart is missing but hopefully you're the lost & found.
Until that day I just sit & wonder, will I ever find Mr. Right?
Or will I always be alone, no one beside me in my bed at night
Being alone is not something that I would recommend,
but my hearts been broken repeatedly, I hope that you can mend, no one wants to be alone.
I'm tired of going down this road alone.
In the past, other guys have done me wrong.
I hope that you could be the one,
to change my outlook on men,
and not leave me bruised & hurt again,
and have my back through thick & thin,
but all I really want to do is get revenge.
Please be the one to turn it all around,
seeing that my hopes of finding true love are down,
lower than a casket in the ground,
my heart is missing but hopefully you're the lost & found.
Until that day I just sit & wonder, will I ever find Mr. Right?
Or will I always be alone, no one beside me in my bed at night
Being alone is not something that I would recommend,
but my hearts been broken repeatedly, I hope that you can mend, no one wants to be alone.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Confessions...sigh.
What's up yall? I been gone for a min. but I'm back now. I've been doing a few things lately. I've been making beats for my dudes Mercy & TF Poet & and they have been getting positive feedback. [their rhymes are dope] On the other hand, I still have a problem.
I'm a coitophobic/genophobic which means that I am terrified of any kind of sex or sexual inteecourse. There are a few things that cause this like incest, molestation & rape. Fortunately, I have never been in those circumstances because I'm a virgin. I am one of the people who have not had anything happen to them as far as a sexual crime. It just happened.
When I think about sex I get so scared. My heart races, my hands sweat, I get very nervous & my stomach hurts. Idk why, but it literally scares the living s*** out of me.
In attempts to avoid any type of sexual contact, I've strayed further away from dating. Ever since my fear developed, I've grown lonely & miserable. I don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life but I'm scared to open up to guys because most of them won't understand.
So thats my confession...go ahead and laugh....
I'm a coitophobic/genophobic which means that I am terrified of any kind of sex or sexual inteecourse. There are a few things that cause this like incest, molestation & rape. Fortunately, I have never been in those circumstances because I'm a virgin. I am one of the people who have not had anything happen to them as far as a sexual crime. It just happened.
When I think about sex I get so scared. My heart races, my hands sweat, I get very nervous & my stomach hurts. Idk why, but it literally scares the living s*** out of me.
In attempts to avoid any type of sexual contact, I've strayed further away from dating. Ever since my fear developed, I've grown lonely & miserable. I don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life but I'm scared to open up to guys because most of them won't understand.
So thats my confession...go ahead and laugh....
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Wtf? Do I Have 'Decieve Me' Written On My Forehead?
This is the second time i've been decieved to by a guy. What's the problem? I've never decieved a guy. I'm a virgin, so I have self respect for myself. It's better being a virgin than being some 'loose' girl giving it away to everybody and they're uncle and dad. I know I'm not a bad looking girl but I have a little bit of a weight problem that can be fixed with more exercise. I know I have a dope steelo and crazy fashion sense. Last but not least, I'm an intelligent girl whose going somewhere in life. So wtf is the problem. This is why I'm so cold towards guys because when I get comfortable enough to let them in, they break my heart in one of the most dirty ways possible. If you're a guy whose ever tried to talk to me, thats why I treat you cold and I know I should'nt because it was their mistakes.
Let me break down how he did it. At first we would talk for hours on the phone about nothing and laugh at eachother's jokes. We also talked about serious things too like the future, sex, and things like that. One day I invited him to my friend's pool party. The first time we looked at eachother, neither one of us could stop smiling. He acted like a gentlemen the whole time. And when he left he grabbed my hand in the softest, most gentle way ever and I felt something. We continued to talk. The conversations got more emotional and deeper. Then he moved away. He said he was gonna come and see me, he called my brother 'bro in law' and even cracked jokes about marriage and children. Lately it hasn't been the same. I tried calling him, texting him, he didn't answer. So I didn't know what was wrong cuz he'd usually be the one to call me. Then I found out he had a gf. All this time I wasted on him and he does this to me. I had 6 other guys trying to talk to me but I thought he was special so I invested myself in him. Now I'm sitting back lookin like a fool. It felt like he ripped my heart out my chest, stabbed it, put salt on the wounds, spit on it and put it back in my chest. I honestly didnt want to do anything the day I found out (Monday). I can't even look at him without my stomach hurting. I just wish I had a picture of his face so I could tape it to a punching bag and beat the crap out of it. Or better yet him. I'm a bigger person than that and I can move on slowly but surely.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Butterflies
whenever i see your face,
whenever i think about you,
whenever i hear your name,
whenever i dream about you,
butterflies.
whenever i see your face,
whenever i see your smile,
my heart starts to race,
my mind runs wild,
butterflies.
maybe its infatuation or,
maybe its just a crush,
i dont know what it is but,
maybe it can blossom into love,
butterflies.
i dont know why, but i feel butterflies,
fluttering with anticipation,
it makes me nervous and excited,
a feeling i cant explain,
butterflies.
whenever i think about you,
whenever i hear your name,
whenever i dream about you,
butterflies.
whenever i see your face,
whenever i see your smile,
my heart starts to race,
my mind runs wild,
butterflies.
maybe its infatuation or,
maybe its just a crush,
i dont know what it is but,
maybe it can blossom into love,
butterflies.
i dont know why, but i feel butterflies,
fluttering with anticipation,
it makes me nervous and excited,
a feeling i cant explain,
butterflies.
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